I ... You

Those forbidden words. mine. for you.
Forbidden words. that I'd like to cry out loud. but not in front of you.
I won't. tell. you. or them. why?
maybe because. I. am. not. brave. enough. Or maybe it's just because. my pride. doesn't allow me to do so.
Dunno.
The only thing I know is that. I. sickly. want. to. shout. those. words. to. you. but. I'll. never. be. able. to.
Call me dumb. Call me nuts. Call me loser. Call me everything you want. But. I'm. To. You. I. Still. . .